Grrrrrrrr!

Today, as I tried to defend our new music teacher, I got told that I need to find a place for my child to be the night of the concert... "You have places where she could go" is what was said. He's absolutely right. My family would be more than willing to take her for the night. Why should they? It's a kids concert. Why can't she come and enjoy the Christmas music? How dare you tell me I can't be with my child especially when this is not time I'm getting paid for? I'm sick of not being with her. I had to find a place for her 2 nights because of conferences. With that being sad, I started to cry. Grrr. I was informed I shouldn't be emotional. That set me over the top! I was done.
So, tonight, I sit here with tears flowing down my cheeks. I'm so angry. Angry at the man who thinks it's okay to tell someone that they can't be emotional. Yup. Because this is the man who has had a spouse off in another country fighting for our freedom, been a single parent, and spent the holidays alone. Psssshaaaa! Not! I hope his turkey gets burnt!

My New Roommate

Hi! Meet Mr. Dust Bunny. Rather cute isn't he? I happen to think so. He's my new roommate. He sleeps in my room or in the living room. It just depends on his mood. He's really made himself at home living with Braelyn and I. I just hope he leaves before Heath returns or it could ugly!

Answers

Lately, I've had plenty of time to ponder. Ponder on the past, present, and future. When thinking about the present and the week that is filled with "thankful" thoughts, I began to thank God for giving me a job that I love, enjoy, blah, blah, blah... and then my ah ha moment struck! Awhile back I wrote a blog asking questions... I didn't know the answer to most of them (obviously, or I wouldn't have written them). But in this ah ha moment, I felt God's presence and he gave me the answers to my questions...
Braelyn was our unexpected blessing because He knew I needed her to get through this deployment. He knew I needed some kind of joy, sense of love because my husband would be unavailable to do that for the time being. God knew I would need to be closer to my family during this time, so I was forced to choose between my job or child and I chose our child. That opened the door to the DR school district. Working there ables me to stop by Grandma and Grandpa's, parents', aunt's or uncle's homes to hear words of encouragement and to feel loved. I drive back and forth each and every day to live by people who care so deeply for our family.
After receiving these answers I began to think of a saying, "All things happen for a reason". We may not know the reason after a day or two, but in time, we will get our answers.