His Power

"If you would have told me years ago we would go through this, I would have thought I would go crazy, I couldn't do it. But once we were in it, then the strength that was not of us was given to us. It wasn't about having a postitive attitude. It was about purifying my heart so God could be present and allow myself to believe in His power."

I can do this!

The Two People I Love the Most

I love, love, LOVE these two people.

It's Almost Time...

Dear Lord:

Give me the strength to say goodbye.

Hold back the tear in my eye.

Cure my insomnia so that I may sleep alone.

Give me a reason to awake when I've none.

Dear Lord:Please help me pace myself.

Allow me to turn to you for help.

And please let me be strong for him.

Even if I've reached the brim.

Dear Lord:Please make time go fast.

I don't know how long I can last.

This is the hardest time of my life, But this is my job: the soldier's wife.

Dear Lord:Let them all stay strong.

Give them the will to go on.

And Lord, Please bring back all our men.

In the name of our country.

Amen.

Just thinking...

Do you ever get a nervous feeling?

A feeling that won't go away until things are right again?

A feeling that makes your guts twist and turn?

A feeling that makes you break down and cry? And cry? And cry?

Are you ever scared?

Scared of the unknown?

Scared to come home one day and find an unknown car parked in front to tell you bad news?

Scared to move on with your life without him?

Have you ever felt lonely?

So lonely you sleep with a shirt of his?

So lonely sit and look at photo albums just to remember his face?

Do you ever have sleepless nights?

Lie awake and wonder what tomorrow will bring?

Lie awake wondering if your child will remember her daddy?

Oh Toys!

Tonight we went on a shopping spree! This is what we got! I'm so excited!!!

A basketball hoop... Grandpa Tom is going to be so proud!

This cool slide (not the kids or the grown man)!

And the best....

This huge house that she can grow into! Again, the kids were not part of the purchase!

So, next time you see us outside, please feel free to come play with us!

Happy Birthday!

Happy Birthday to a wonderful husband and father!

Choices

When Heath signed up for the Guards, it was a choice. He knew fully well of the possibilities that came with the Guards: touring different countries, meeting new people, and yes, war.

When Heath and I married, I knew Guards was a part of his life; I made that choice to say yes and make it a part of my life as well. Again, I was quite aware of the possibilities; him missing out on our child's (children's) lives, doing household things without him, celebrating holidays without him, becoming a plumber, mechanic, shoveling snow, mowing lawns, and of course, feeding his dog. But, that was a choice I made.

Now that the time has come for him to leave, I do not want pity. I do not want people to feel sorry for me. Yes, I may cry once in awhile in public because I am a very emotional person, but please don't feel sorry for me. The only thing I ask is that you respect our choices.